Well hello there! I apologize for the lack of posts lately; this is due to a combination of school assignments piling up and my laptop being broken (which for a student SUCKS!!). But it is fixed now, thank goodness! Still have lots of assignments to do and finals coming up so there will not be many posts for a while except for Jess N Shan TV updates. But once this semester is over some new posts will be up, but until then enjoy my Jess N Shan TV video posts!
This video is from Monday and is a Christmas decorating video! Hope you enjoy it :)
Well hello there! I apologize for not posting this on Monday! I got totally swamped with writing papers...ahhh the life of a university student is glamorous isn't it? Here is our latest video where we discuss some of our favourite make-up, clothing, and food items for the fall!
Make sure to leave a comment letting us know what you think or if you just want to say hi! Thanks for watching/reading!
Well hello there! Scary title huh? Indeed it is. I'm going to talk about something on a serious note today, but don't be afraid! I just want to get something off my chest and what better way to do that than post my personal feelings on the internet?...Okay maybe it's not such a good way but it's too late now! WARNING this post will contain a lot of talking but I truly hope you stay until the end, I'll try and make it worth your time I promise! So brace yourself for some serious rambling ladies and gents...
If you've seen any pictures that I've posted anywhere, you may have noticed that I have a slim figure. (I like to use the word 'slim' because I think sounds nicer than 'skinny'). If you haven't I will give you a visual.
Not the greatest or most glamorous photo but you get the idea of what my body-shape generally looks like. So what was your initial reaction? Believe it or not I've struggled in being confident in the way I look for a long time, even posting this picture now makes me kind of nervous.
This is the way I am and have always been. After I dropped my baby-fat and started growing up this has been my natural size. I eat whatever I want, but it doesn't affect my weight. I exercise once in a while to stay healthy, but not on a regular basis. I can already feel many girls fuming because not everyone is as lucky as I am, but it's true and seems normal to me. I'm 5'5 (and 3/4 I think if that makes a difference?) and weigh 112 pounds. Whooo posting my weight on the internet, never thought I'd do that!
So now you must be wondering: you're skinny, eat whatever you want, hardly exercise, what's the problem? Well, more than you would think. As a kid, especially in high-school, I was extremely self-conscious of my size. Not so much in elementary school because everyone is derping around and not really caring about what people look like. But in high school, things are a lot different. This is when puberty starts kicking in and appearances start to change and become more important, for girls in particular I think. Boobs start growing and hips become wider; curves become more evident.
For me, this didn't really happen until, well, the end of high-school/beginning of university really. And I hated it. It felt like every girl around me was a 'normal' size and looked beautiful from every angle. But what is a 'normal' size? In my pre-pubescent eyes it was anything between obese and me. All I ever wanted was to not be just 'skin and bones' as some people put it; awkward, skinny, bony, however you want to put it. Now, before you get all these mental images of what I looked like in high-school, don't go picturing an anorexic girl because by no means was I anorexic or had any type of eating disorder.
Ah yes, the lovely term 'anorexic'; even the word itself looks kinda scary. This word was definitely not my favourite. I remember one time at my sister's birthday party where I encountered this word. Myself, my sister, and some of her friends were on our front porch where my mom was serving cake. I was there, of course, to sing 'happy birthday' to her, and then when we finished I started to head inside. I had just eaten lunch and I'm not really a cake person (I don't like icing that much, it's too sweet) so this seemed fine to me. My sister's friend asked why I didn't want any cake so I told her. I then proceeded to head inside and then heard her ask my sister, "what, is your sister anorexic or something?". Yeah. That really stung and I cried for at least an hour. Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever told anyone that.
This leads me to another reason why I was self-conscious about my size: other people talking about it. I've noticed that people won't tell girls that they're 'fat' to their face (unless they're a really awful person), but they don't seem to have any problem telling them that they're skinny. Maybe they think it's some kind of compliment? I don't know, but it certainly didn't seem like a compliment to me. Whether it was my friends or my peers, people would often say 'wow, you're so skinny', 'you're so bony', or 'you must weigh like 50 pounds' (I didn't, of course). What always bugged me was why they felt the need to point something like that out? Yes, I'm skinny, and yes, (for example) you have a large fore-head, what's the difference? Those are both natural traits that we were born with that we may not like, so why do you have to make people feel uncomfortable by pointing it out? Maybe it's something that people don't think is such a big deal, but each time I received a 'skinny' comment, it stung deeper. It seemed like everyone wanted to lose weight, I, on the other hand, desperately wanted to gain weight and look 'normal'.
I constantly looked in the mirror, waiting for my breasts to grow in, my butt to get bigger, my awkward shapes to become elegant. But, let me tell you right now, it took a while. In fact, I'm still pretty slim and awkward, but I've accepted it. However back then, I couldn't wait to grow up, not just to have a 'womanly' shape, but a shape in general. There were times when I looked at myself and thought I looked like...a freak; a skinny freak. Harsh, I know, but I couldn't help the way I felt when it seemed like everyone around me was growing into their bodies while I wasn't.
There were a number of things that bugged me about my body: my collar bone and ribs were prominent, my arms were thin with bony elbows, I had knobby knees, my legs were like sticks (I could go on and on sadly). And yes, I did, and still do, have a 'thigh gap'. I recently found out that the 'thigh gap' is something that girls aspire towards and frankly, this shocked me. All throughout my life I wanted my thighs to touch, I wanted some meat on my bones and now the 'thigh gap' is something people want? I couldn't wrap my head around this. I always thought that thigh gaps looked weird and awkward, but apparently it's desirable. I never would have thought.
So what I want to know is, why does this matter so much? Why do people care about what they and other people look like? Why do people want to change the way they look? Why does it matter? I don't know and may never find out. I'm not saying that I've outgrown this stage of my life and I'm not some perfect, self-confident wonder woman either, HEAVENS TO BETSY no! While I have grown more of a figure, I am by no means perfect. I still have my moments where I think that I am slim and wish that I had more curves, but then I think, who cares? This is who I am and if people can't accept that then that's fine, I don't need them in my life.
By now you may or may not be wondering: why did I decide to write this post? For a number of reasons, I guess. I know that there are probably plenty of posts out there like this one, but I wanted to write my very own that had my own thoughts and opinions on the matter. I want people to know that 'bigger' girls aren't the only ones who have body-image issues, most people probably have them too. I want 'naturally slim' girls, as I call them, to know that you're not alone; there are probably more of us out there than you would think. I also want people to know that weight and appearance can be a sensitive topic, so if you're thinking of saying something (even if you don't think that it's a big deal), just keep it to yourself because what you're about to say may not want to be heard. It is kind of sad that appearance is such a big deal, but it's the truth and we have to accept that.
Personally, I think all girls are beautiful, no matter what their shape or size may be! But it's not all about outer beauty, but inner beauty as well. Be nice to everyone, smile more, tell someone how wonderful they are! You would be surprised at what a difference it can make. So if you are reading this I have a message just for you: you are beautiful, inside and out, don't let anyone tell you different; be proud of who you are and what you look like! I know it can be tough, believe me, but I know you can do it! Embrace who you are, you lovely lil' creature you! :)
Wow, I think that's about it, if you've read this far, I want to say thank you and you are truly a champ. I sincerely hope this post helped you or educated you in some way. It's certainly something that I've had bottled up inside of me for a while. Just so you know, this isn't some post that I wrote to make people feel sorry for me or anything, goodness no, I just wanted to shed a little light on this issue with my own personal thoughts. So let me know what your thoughts are (no bad comments please, we're all friends here!) or if you want someone to talk to I would be more than happy to help! Spread this around if you think more people should it! I'm sorry that the cheesey-factor has been off the charts and I promise that the next post will be happier (unless you enjoyed this post and want more like this I could probably think of something else to write).
I'll leave you with one of my favourite quotes that I really take to the heart (although I'm not sure who said it, according to Google it's often attributed to Plato so forgive me if that is incorrect! Wow, way to ruin the moment Shan XD):
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
Well hello there! Not sure what the title of this video is, it seemed to change a lot but, regardless, I hope you enjoy the No Arms Challenge (I think that's what we're calling it...)! Prepare to have your eyes be mesmerized by my beauty :P and if you're having second thoughts about watching this video here's a little preview...
...Yeah...you probably want to watch it even less now. But in all seriousness, I do hope it makes you smile! I apologize for my gremlin-sounding voice as I was sick during this video (again ugh). Make sure to subscribe and check out other videos! Leave a comment letting me know what you thought :D
Well hello there! I thought I would talk to you lovely people about a trend that I adore. Collared shirts under sweaters WOOP WOOP! I am a big lover of retro-vintage style so when I saw this look I thought it was absolutely adorable. (By the way, just discovered some retro-vintage style websites called ModCloth and Ruche and they are BEYOND amazing, I want everything in their stores!!). Yes, collars in general are something that I'm in love with, especially peter pan collars, OOH CHILD! Don't even get me started.
But anyways! Back to our main topic. I love this trend because it's super easy to mix and match different collars with different sweaters and so on. It's also quite warm because of the layering which is wonderful for the upcoming winter season ("...winter is coming..." I don't even watch Game of Thrones but I couldn't resist, forgive me!). So you can stay warm but still look cute and not like a hoodie and ugg-wearing hobo (...guilty). Unfortunately I don't have many collared shirts nor do I have many sweaters so I believe that is reason enough to go shopping! If I do, let me know in the comments if you want to see a 'haul' post of sorts, or something like that!